Thursday, July 31, 2008

tennis news flash.

oh my dear god, i am so excited. roger haha federer just lost in his third round match in the cincinnati Master Series yesterday. rafa is now on his way to the quaters, meeting tommy haas. and if rafa wins this week, he is the no.1. vamos, rafa. i am psych.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008


what is worst tasting soda?
i would say dr.pepper. its a cherry flavoured soda which is poouh yucky. for those that hate the cherry (usually on the icing of cakes) would certainly hate this drink. cause it taste almost like that. and also with a lil touch of cough medicine taste. blurgh.

how do you differenciate coca-cola and diet coke?
diet coke appears darker in colour than coca-cola, seriously. diet coke is less tasty and is rather tasteless compared to coca-cola which has a stronger taste. and coca-cola has a stronger smell compared to diet coke. so sniff sniff and you will know.

is there a difference in taste and look between 7up and sprite?
i don't know but i hope to find out. haha.

who loves orange soda?
kel loves orange soda.
(from the kenan and kel show)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

purple morning.

today is my dear friend's brithday, so a great happy happy birthday to her. wishing her all the best life can bring her. wished that i can be there to sing her a birthday song.

today is also a purple-coloured day. thank you for colouring my day. with that i wore my cupacakes shirt today. thanks to lei and the existance of ecstacy. i owe you one,lei.

Monday, July 28, 2008

simple satistics on malaysia.

some may say that that Anwar is another power craving politician waiting in line to be the next government so that he gets his turn to rob the country and the citizens. making it now as if its one criminal blaming another criminal of his crimes. but right now, no one knows for sure that if Anwar is true to his words, and will he carry out all that he has said that we will do if we make him the prime minister. no one knows. but one thing we do know, is the current government is certainly a criminal to all the citizens' suffering, major or minor. since no one knows, question, what happens if after Anwar is at his top, he becomes like one of the animals? well, what do we gotta lose? if we make him the leader, there is a 50 -50 chance that he may turn out bad, and he may not. if he does not, we have a whole lot to benefit from. a whole lot of suffering taken back. but if he does, its real unfortunate but we do not lose anything because all that we can lose, we had already lost them to the current government. right?

Sunday, July 27, 2008

tennis news.

tennis is an awesome sports to watch. i can spend hours and hours sitting in front of the tevee watching every point and cheering everytime there is a good rally. though i do not play tennis anymore and am totally rusty but i do enjoy watching the game very much. and i try my best to always catch up with the sports progress, especially in the men's singles.

thus, i want to point out that, rafa (my all time favourite) is so going to te over the no.1 rank in the South African Airways ATP ranking. after his most recent win, in the Rogers Cup in Toronto, he is now only 300 points behind federer (my all time meluat nampak) when federer lost to simon guilles in the second round. now, according to the ATP news, rafa only need about one more week, one more ATP title to take over the top rank.

and to novak (all time perasan), during the clay court season, if i am not mistaken, in the ATP Master Series in Hamburg when rafa met novak in the semi-finals and it was the made headlines because it was a crucial match for both rafa and novak. because in this very match, if rafa loses, this means novak will take the no.2 rank and if rafa wins, he gets a rematch, against federer on the only clay court title that he did not successfully grasps in 2007. but no doubt, the king of clay won the match and thus going on to win the title and managed to rip it away from federer. well, my whole point now is, novak is long and gone. now, its not the tension between rafa and novak for the no.2 rank anymore, its now, rafa and federer for the no.1 rank. therefore, novak, please, you are not and never was a treat to rafa, even a little bit. the media should stop saying that novak is closer to the no.2 rank, he can only be close to a point but never can he over take rafa. and in the recent ATP Rogers Cup, novak lost to andy murray - the one that was supposed/expected to be having novak's limelight until when he was injured and was away for a few months.
haha, novak, haha, what happen to 'i am the best player in the world?'

federer is certainly falling into the public unintentional damnation. after 3 grand slams, he has yet to put his hands on any title this year. and after so many ATP master series, he has managed to win two titles. i do wonder will he take the US Open crown this year. but well, i can't care less. oh, and olympics.

and in women, not much. but i still am wondering why till today did justine henin retire out of the blue.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Mama Mia.

mama mia is like a trademark for my friends and i. it may not be the hippest song to listen to or the hippest song in the music world right now but it to me, it means a lot. this is because mama mia is the first song ever, performed by my friends and i. haha. ya, it is an amateur performance in a school during a teacher's retirement, but its not a thing that everyone has an opportunity to do. and besides that, it was also the last song the band played, at the Convent's Alumni night, before all of us part our ways. well, mama mia is like the song that made it happen for us. =) sweet sweet times.

with this, if you may have heard, there is a movie called, 'mama mia'. its a musical movie. its a love story told using all ABBA songs. one of them, mama mia, of course. its a good interesting movie. stars meryl steep and pierce brosnan. at some parts, it just makes you want to stand up and shake your groove on. make sure to catch it. wayy bettter than whatever dark knight.

wishing those that were a part of the mama mia performances best of everyday.

Thursday, July 24, 2008


few days ago, i had my day out. went hacked with my fellow colleagues cum friends, yu ting, stella and grace. well, they are the first few nice lovely people that i know on this strange land. first we went to feast on some japanese cuisine. everything was good except for the udon noodles. blek. its sourish soup was bluh. later we stopped by Galleria for dessert at the, Marble Slap Ice-cream, i think, for some sweeeet stuff. indulged into some cheesecake ice-cream and it has a rather awkward taste. and then we went for a movie, the all famous all so highly rated and reviewed The Dark Knight. and went home without a sweet supper as planned because of the long movie. but i shall call it a day.

*** *** ***

The Dark Knight, you know what, i called it, a two and half hours of i-don't-understand. seriously, i do not know what was going on with the movie. the villain, yes, the jokerman, the hero, the batman, the lawyer and the police? the rest is what?? what? huh? why? i don't know, i may be like freaking stupidard or something that was why i did not get it but i have to say, its really way to complex. or maybe its just a bad movie and nobody notices it just because it broke some record in the box office whatnot. its ok to not understand a movie but its 2 1/2 hours long, people - the torture. just sitting there wishing it would quickly end or wishing you finally understood it. but no. aih.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

hush, fly me home.

after a month of hard work i finally made my money, enough to buy me a flight home. i need to bring myself home as soon as possible. just gotta finish off and be done and dusted with this whole purpose of me being here.

if not i will begin to fall deeper into this hellish hole.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

our tokoh puteri '07

i promised one of my closest of good friends that i will cherish the moment and the memory that she became the Tokoh Puteri Convent 2007. though, unfortunately, i could not make it to give her a big hug on the minute that it was annouced. i could not make it to applaude her success and all, therefore, i dedicate this post just for her, my dear friend, miss beh shuh pyng a.k.a mahsubing, skub, behskubpeng, etc.

aahhh...see, this is her. on the day of her big day. so pretty, almost elegant, hiding all the clumsiness. mind you, she does not look like that. its really lucky for those that are able to see her so prim and proper. because most of the days she is very stressed and agitated and exasperated and of course with all that, she don't look very nice to even allow you to take a close up photo like that. and look, a little purpley flower. (she wore that as if to bring me along..right, beh?) anyway, anyway, i should not deviate on what i should be writing about.

this is her on the stage. receiving the big old trophy - only those gifted and hard workers get to put their hands on.

well, she truly deserves it. for all the homework she completes. for all the tuition she went to. for all the revision she did. for all the practices she did. for all her self-belief. all her consistent good results in examniations. all her endless hard work. in school, after school. besides that, her ability to be a good leader in school, a rescpectable prefect, haha, still being able to watch tevee and divide her time for all her driving lessons and tests to finally pass after the forth time. luckily the teachers did not consider that into account, if not, tidak jadilah dia sebagai tokoh puteri hari ini. i had to mention that, i know thats a lil evil but of course, i had to mention it, it will not be complete without it. right, teoh? right, mizen? haha.

i know, when she reads this, she will wanna kill me, but deep inside, she memang ada SS punya, biasalah, kan beh shuh pyng. hahaha. sorry, beh. but i could not help myself. its not that i wanna ridicule you but this is actually honouring you as the tokoh puteri and to show you how proud i am of you.

how she became the tokoh purteri : i will say that nobody will know better than me (and other friends) how much she slogged to have this achievement. everyday in class, she keeps her self-discipline at a very high level. can you ever imagine a person sitting beside ejane can concentrade on only doing her homework? i do not mean that ejane is noisy and talkative, no, she is not, but its just ejane. its still acceptable if this person sits beside jennifer and do homework all day, then ya. but not ejane. well, this person - beh shuh pyng can. she will not look up, as long as her homework are not complete. she will not laugh at any jokes. she will not deny anything thrown at her. when most of us, or maybe just me, are only on the brink marking down which question to do, she would be on her last question already. and sometimes, she can do it even before the teacher gives the homework, she predicts them. sometimes this causes her to do extra questions but what the heck, she finishes earlier than those following strictly to what the teachers give. and when she finishes all her homework, she kacau people pulak. thats why...then the other people pulak cannot finish homework in time.

so that is pretty much the very short version of a very long story of how this tokoh puteri came to be.

miss you much, my tokoh puteri.

Friday, July 18, 2008

a dark side.

call me crazy call me mad, say that i am attempting an unlawful suicide. yes, i admit to all that. because i have been driving without a license and without any company of someone with license. BUT its not far, maybe just 3km or more and back. its to get to a pharmacy cum convinience store. i can get there by bicycle, but i am just so sick of panting and sweating all the time. at sometimes i do that because i gain satisfaction out of it. i don't know why. kill me if you must. and i wanted to purchase something only with an identification to identify my age, hell, do you know our malaysian IC won't work. damn it. i suicidally drove myself there and they tell me there is no birth date there to identify that i am legal to purchase that shit. frustrastion.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

hanya ingin berkata-kata buat senyuman.

kepadamu inginku katakan,

janganlah dibiarkan peluang ini melayang lagi,
janganlah dimusnahkan lagi peluang ini,
kerana ini bukannya peluang yang kedua,
malah sudah lebih daripada tiga.

beliau amat menghargai kehadiranmu dalam hidupnya,
itu jelas boleh dinampak dan dirasai,
beliau menghargai ingatanmu kepadanya,
itu jelas boleh dirasai.

beliau berbuat bagai tidak peduli,
tetapi kamu tahu itu bukan intensi benar beliau,
janganlah biarkan itu memutus harapanmu,
kerana apabila minda beliau lapang,
akan beliau teringat padamu.

beliau mempunyai senyuman yang mahal,
senyuman yang beribu makna,
senyuman manisnya, senyuman sindirnya, senyuman penghargaannya, senyuman ikhlasnya,...,
walaupun kekadang di depanmu beliau tidak memberi apa senyuman,
boleh dinampak matanya berkilau dan bersinar,
bagaikan beliau tersenyum dengan matanya,
kerana beliau ada dapat menatap wajahmu.

kepadamu inginku ucapankan,

sebanyak-banyak ungkapan kata-kata yang baik,
semoga berbanyak-banyak hari akan dipenuhi dengan baraan api kebahagiaan.

inginku beritahu bahawa,

kebahagiaan ini bukan sentiasa boleh dimiliki,
ada hari yang ada,
ada hari yang tiada,
ada hari yang baraanya terlalu panas sudah,
ada hari yang kesunyiannya menjadi terlalu sepi.

biarlah banyak-banyak kesabaran,
biarlah banyak-banyak berfikiran positif,
janganlah diputuskan azammu itu,
biarlah ia sentiasa membara dalam dirimu.

yang sudah berlalu,
simpan yang baik,
buang yang buruk.
jangan sesekali meragui yang baik,
jangan sesekali merindui yang buruk.

dan untuk yang sekarang,
rajin-rajin mereka kenangan yang indah,
walaupun tidak sebaik mana,
atau tidak sebaik yang dahulu,
bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

bersenyumlah pada hari yang maha bahagia,
tetapi jangan pula dihilangkan senyum pada hari-hari yang lain,
kerana kenangan kebahagiaan harus sentiasa berterusan.
dengan ini,
saya berharap supaya kamu diberkati dengan idea-idea untuk menghasilkan pelbagai kek dan biskut yang lazat buatnya.

amatku merasa berbahagia juga kerana berpeluang berkongsi semua ini dengan kamu berdua.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008


i guess to compare myself with all my friends, i am still very much living in my past. i am the one with the least of experience of how breaking out of secondary school life and carry on with life feels like - making new friends, meeting new people, creating more (new) memories. but i guess none of my friends has yet experience how being faraway from home and with barely anyone to talk to feels like. sure enough i have had met with many newer people. so new. but i guess its not the same.

1. i wonder how making new friends feels like?
2. will making new friends make you miss your friends less?
3. will new friends make better friends than your friends?
4. lets say if i am here sitting with a new found friend, will the thought of hoping this was not her but instead is my friend from home come across my mind?
5. will this happen? has this happen to you before?
6. do friends stay forever?
how should i feel if my close friends has other close friends?

i know this is all part of growing up and going out. but i don't know, it seems not very right to me.

i know i do not own my friends, neither do they own me. we are free to make new friends, no doubt. but i guess i am not used to making new friends. because my friends now are people that understands me from my very core, i believe to some extend, yes. sometimes they know me better than i do. i need not do anything to fit in or to fit in better. as if born to be friends, somehow bumped to each other and friends we are, and with a blink of an eye, we've been friends eversince.

do new friends suppose to work that way too? as in bumped and be friends? i guess making new friends needs a hefty effort. it as if starting all over again. to learn to trust to understand to smile to talk to laugh...

can i burp as loud as possible and still not be socially rejected?** i wonder.

i may take a whole week to eplain to my new friend that i seek for kebahagiaan, will this new friend EVER understand what this special phenomenon mean?** i wonder.

**but see, i somehow have friends that somehow accept me for burping so disgustingly loud.
**and see, i somehow have friends that are just there to understand what kebahagiaan mean and are there to share the ride with me too.

but i guess its out of anyone's control. but new friends or not, i hope that the bond that we share will always be there, as tight as it was, forever.

for i miss all the memories we shared, all the memories we accidentally created, all the laughters we shared, all the kopi-o we drank, all the songs we sang, all the alleys we walked, all the krazrkar experiences that we went through, all the suicidal acts we attempted, all the balloons we popped, all the cupacakes we baked, all the breakfast we had, all the swearing we uttered, ... ... ...

friends are gifts. though they maybe some deformation here and there and everywhere, they are beautiful. they are special. they keep me company. they bring meaning to me.

friends for life.

musical plays.

yesterday night, my dada and i went to a musical play, at the Miller Outdoor Theater. the play was titled, Disney's When You Wish. it was nice. the play has no storyline but just musical presentation, dance and singing, on most of Disney's cartoon. weirdly somehow my favourite was The Jungle Book. and one on cats... i don't/can't recall any cats cartoon though, 'everybody wants to be a cat', sounds familiar huh, but what cartoon is that???

anyway, it was a special setting. the theater is set in the middle of a park. in front of the theater are seats for those with tickets and behind that is a small green hill, where public can just sit on the grass and enjoy the play as well, for free. and at the same time enjoy the night sky.

we had the tickets but we were 30 minutes late and thus our seats were taken. we were suppose to be at our seat 30 minutes before the curtain opens. and 15 minutes prior to that, untaken seats are given away. so we had to sit on the lil hilly patch of grass that was swamp with lil kids. *annoyed,very much.~

thats the outdoor one. last month, i went to an indoor musical play at Theater Under The Stars. its not really under the stars like outdoors but the ceiling of that theater has starry starries on them. the play called, The Drowsy Chaperone -the funniest musical on broadway was of course, funny. and the dancing, especially the tap dancing was awesome. the whole stage backdrop... the ensemble of musicians that is responsible for the sound effects, the music and all. unfortunately enough, they don't allow cameras.

musical plays are not for gays.

Monday, July 14, 2008

poo fact.

i just came across this fact while i was reading a book. it says that whenever we poo and then flushes the toilet, the water flushing down the bowl creates a very powerful aerosol of droplets that scatter quite a distance and carries faecal bacteria (poo bacteria). those droplets travel up to 6 meter from the toilet, which means the when you brush your teeth with that toothbrush of yours,.. i am sure its less than 6 meter from the toilet. but when you close the lid, obviously, the poo bacteria travel far less but this means that the bacteria is all over the toilet seat and the lid.

marcikular..what a disturbing filthy fact.

make this go on forever.

*snow patrol

Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness

i can certainly play this song forever. addictive and smashing lyrics. though they may not connect with my life, but it is just cleverly written.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

the 13th again.

aaah, so here i am on the 13th. which now marks the 2nd month i am away, faraway from home. never in my life, been away from home for such a long time. anyway, since i've lasted for two months straight, guess i lasted longer than i expected. (hell, is there other choice anyway?) well, life is flowing for me. as it has to flow. anyway, skip skip the unnecessary part, and jump into my movie marathon. the last time i had 22 movies on my list for the 1st month. now into the 2nd month, damsyik, my marathon is less by more than half to only eigth movies! sigh. what a fall. so here is the list,

1. Premenition. (awesome! indeed. really make you go round and round and round and dump you where you first were.)
2. The Brave One.
(nice too.)

3. The Love Guru.
4. Big Momma's House. (ok. really old movie though.)
5. Stardust. (i am impressed. i am sure most had seen this movie. i like the soundtracks. they are nice.)
6. WALL.E (i am a lil disappointed. its cutish cartoon but but but somehow...)
7. Wanted. (totally wowed by it, that, when i was cycling home after the show, i was still so into the mood of it all, that i crossed the road without looking left or right and thus, got honked at. it awesome. every scene just seem to wow you.)
8. Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind. (it stars jim carrey, kate winslet, kristen dunst,.. but it feels like an independant movie. but its not bad.)

sadly, only eight. so there you go.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

its all in the 'logic'.

Convent's Hari Anugerah maybe long gone and forgotten but anyway, if those present during that day that may had paid attention to the headmistress's speech, she said that there was a parent that called up to her and told her that Convent is what it is today, consistently top ranked in perak/malaysia and producing excellent students/results, not becuase of the teachers, not because of the administration, not the school but tuition. to that parent that called up to say that - finger.

its so lame-eo that its almost funny.

tuition? does tuition care that you practice your homework at home? does tuition even care to give homework? does tuition teachers care to mark students' work? does tuition teacher follow a students' progress? how much time can tuition teachers spent on their student? can a tuition teacher teach at a considerable pace according to the class of students? and when a tuition teacher is not able to look at students' work, how well do they know how the students are coping, how much they actually understand when they say they understand? and it goes on...

ya, i have to agree that, yes, there are/is tuition teacher(s) that are/is more dedicated than the school teachers themselves but the very statement given by that parent really is wrong. yes, tuitions do play roles in educating the students but tuition only act as a medium to the students to either understand a subject better or as a preparatory session before the teacher teaches in school. either ways, tuition and school work hand in hand.

if tuition is all that great, why isn't other school performing any better than Convent? because in Convent, teachers actually care to give homework and make sure that is it done and corrected, competitiveness that actually drive the students to study harder, practice - endless of paper work. in Convent, where number of questions in a given homework is planned. in Convent, the environment, the custom, the culture, the expectations, the pressure,... allow/let/make the students aim higher and with that contend at a higher level thus producing CONVENT, taiping.

Convent is certainly producing results and students different from other schools around taiping town, though other students from other schools may share the same tuition as Convent students. this just simply proves that Convent is different and its run in a different way. there is no denying it.

therefore, the conclusion is, teachers, adminitrators, and Convent itself, have huge influence and contributions to what Convent is today.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

for my friends...

this is for all my great friends out there, back home, in Malaysia.

mizen, ezen, jennifer, beh, joanne,
teoh, yan, ng, meichen, meilinn, yeeling, pohjuan, agnes, lei.
my classmates: farhana, shafiq, hazlin, theva, peiying, ah farn, veroski, norida, farahin, alia, shaz, jessicaa, AMSA, siva, yoga, asmira, putri-puteri,..
those that were there with me hanging out, wasting time for the past few months: serena, teexin, malini...

i think of you whenever i pull out my wedgie. it sucks to not have a wedgie, it sucks to live without your company.

lotsa misses and loves.

Sunday, July 6, 2008


Rafael Nadal won the Wimbledon! VAMOS RAFA!
the king is dead, long live the new king.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

I live everyday...

for the past years, I lived everyday because for each day, there was a little fire of hope of seeing you;
for the past years, I lived everyday of every year for those six special days;
for the past years, I lived everyday because everyday was worth living for all the rollercoaster ride of emotions you took me.

for the past few months, I lived everyday, searching for a miracle to happen;

for the past few months, I lived everyday, because i knew that time does not stand still and that the light of miracle was fainting..

for now, i live everyday so that I will arrive on the day that I will see you again. I will.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


today managed to enjoy the joy of making money and go shopping...yummilicious. but anyway, today i came across nice t-shirts.
one, and another one,
OMGWTF muffins are just ugly cupcakes
i had to have both of them.

and at one section called, , which shirts like below,

most likely to change the world
stop animal testing. they get all the wrong answers anyway!
the earth rocks. save our earth
if only the planet was as cool as me

warning! planet in need of repair

nice messages, i thought.