i am a survivor.

i am sitting here, glowing with admiration, for myself, for surviving the aftermath of Hurricane Ike.

surviving, i do not mean that my house got blown away, or someone i know died, or that i survived a near death experience, or that i woke up in the middle of the sea.

surviving, truly surviving, living withOUT electricity.

first night was fun, thrilling, with the wind huffing and pufffing and the trees go shushing and slashing and with big droplets of rain escorting the hurricane. while i sit down, by the apple scented candles, listening to the news on the radio. and soon fell asleep. with every tiny little hole in the house sealed, sleeping was not easy, breathing was not easy.

sunrose and sunset for 7 shitting times, and there was still shitting no electricity.

it was no internet, no telecommunication, no televesion, no music, no entertainmnet, no light, no sight, no food, no milk, no air-con, no shit for 7 shitting days. just darkness and silence.

everytime the sunsets, the body automatically shuts down, though the mind is very much still wide awake. therefore, the body literally slumps on the couch, while the mind fantasizes on watching tevee. though surrounded by candles, it is romantically dejecting. reading was the only sensible activity but reading was not easy, with the candle light flickering to the sound of silence. talking was the next best, dogs was topic of the night. besides that, cockroach hunting & killing, jigsaw puzzle, understanding the 'mechanism' of fire on candles, playing with fire were some of the activities.

the only music was the ticking of the shitting clock. every tick it made drove me one step closer to insanity. the only image on the tevee were the reflection of my sister and i. the only air-con was when god farted.

it was like living a life of a vagabond. living on the road, until curfew time, then back to the pitch-black dark cave. around and about scavenging for electricity, to charge the handphone (the utmost necessity), scavenging for real food, scavenging for internet services.

on the eight time, the sunset, i thought a star must have had fallen into room, mana tahu, it was the shitting electricity! the joy.

one thing i learnt from this golden experience, hope is shit, casualness (whatever-ness) is not shit.

just some photos and videos on my day out at a concert. screaming people and the fanatism was hot out.

that is Counting Crows, singing 'Long December', pretty good song. good piano-playing.

Augustana was their opening act; they have nice different genre of songs. should check them out.

finally was Maroon 5;

that is adam lavine struting his stuff.

prison break,season 4,episodes 1&2.

this show does not fail to bring the suspense in you. thats for sure.

• it started with Michael seeking revenge from Gretchen for killing Sara. finally when he hunts down Gretchen, he was told, Sara is very much alive. and the head was not Sara's. they had to faked it because Sara escaped. well, so Michael should believe Gretchen or his what his brother saw and just go right ahead shoot Gretchen in the head? yessa. he let Gretchen live.
• remember, at the end of season 3, Whistler and Mahone were together on something with Gretchen. Whistler is actually only using Gretchen. he and Mahone are together to want to bring The Company down. and Whistler is trying to convince Michael to join them in exchange for Sara's location. sad enough, Whistler died. yes.
• Sara's come back was real!!! with the help of Bruce. in case you forgot, Bruce is the Garvenor's assistant/friend. he is the one who helped Sara after her escaped and Michael called him and he took Sara to him. it was such a sweet reunite. but Sara is now dealing with a bad trauma from all the torture she received from The Company. and she said to Michael that the only thing that made her stay alive to today was 'the thought of being able to be with him'. i can go on and on on this..so next...
• their mission is getting more complicated now - bringing down The Company. its a much more different environment now..working outside prison. its so much less depressing. Sona busted and many prisoners managed to escape and that includes yes, Bellick, Sucre and the shit - T-bag Bagwell. now this shit is on a mission to hunt down Michael to take his revenge. lets just wish him luck to hell. but damn it, he has the bird book that Michael need to bring down The Company.
• now The Company is set out to kill all that are close to/know Whistler. more dead people this means. and first to go were Mahone's wife and son.

its gonna be a hell of a season. i just kinda spoilt your first two. i will not anymore. so have fun!

wish list.

i spotted this list on the back of a cereal box...

18 things to do before you're 18:

1. ride the world's biggest rollercoaster.
   dare to keep your eyes open and hands in the air the whole ride.
2. bungee jump.
   scared? at 700ft, the Bloukram's river in South Africa is the biggest.
3. score the winning goal/basket.
   remind all your friends at every given opportunity.
4. win an award, trophy or prize.
   write that acceptance speech and thank the world.
5. learn an instrument.
   no air guitar.
6. go backstage at a gig.
   it'll be something you'll boast about for years to come.
7. meet your idol.
   being a celebrity stalker might not go down too well.
8. play a part in your favourite tv show.
   be an extra and learn to speak without talking.
9. meet someone with your name.
   with the world population of 6 billion it should be easy.
10. make a discovery.
    whatever the discovery, make sure it's named after you.
11. get away with the perfect practical joke.
    be careful of retaliation, it could end in tears.
12. own a pointless collection.
    one person's junk is another person's prized possession.
13. invent a word that makes it into the dictionary.
    make it part of the crew's lingo.
14. conquer your biggest fear.
    if you're too scared, try hypnotism.
15. raise money for charity.
    get some exercise by signing up for a charity road race.
16. pass your driving test the first time.
    go straight to the next task.
17. complete a road trip coast to coast.
    route 66 originally ran from chicago to santa monica.
18. reach 18 years of age - yes!!!
    embrace old age.

but i am over 18...though i am still considered 18. but according to maths, i am closer to 19 then 18. haha. crap. anyway, sadly, i am not that fortunate to be able to do all that above before i was 18 but i managed with some;

1. ride the world's biggest rollercoaster.
   maybe not the biggest but certainly one of the biggest in the world. but i am certain with high intensity of adrendaline running through my body and mind, i don't think i know if i let my hands open, but sure my eyes were open, its a beautiful view of way above. but i did let go of my hands for a few seconds on a small rollercoaster...(with adik..,remember?haha)
2. win an award, trophy or prize.
   yes but i was not given an opportunity for a speech. i would be darned honoured, cause, you know, i have a thing for microphones.
3. learn an instrument.
   learned but never mastered any.
4. meet your idol.
   yes. but i am no celebrity stalker of course.
5. meet someone with your name.
   many people go by jane, not ooieejane though. so..
6. own a pointless collection.
   i do own a pointless collection of bread plastic wraps. but my mada threw them away. it was hell of a collection. i dare to believe i am a record holder too.
7. invetn a word that makes it into the dictionary.
   i do like using new words...no diction has yet acceptted them.
8. past your driving test the firsdt time.
   PASS MY DRIVING TEST FOR THE FIRST TIME. PROUD TO SAY YES!
9. reached 18 and embracing still...

since i am over 18, lets make the list up to 21, thus making it, 'things to do before 21';

19. sky diving.
20. be there at a grand slam tennis event, at the same time, get nadal's autograph.
21. make MISI BAHAGIA happen with my friends.

i have more. but just let this be this for now...

no spoilers,please.sorry no can't do.

i just finished the two hour primere of prison break season 4.............................
i don't want to spoil the suspense for those that have not got a chance to watch it yet. but i do feel the need to be evil and to give you the spoiler. but well, maybe not this time. but it will come. =)