many thoughts are running through my head. well, come to think of it, my thoughts are in such abundance, my head does feel its weight, all day, everyday. it would be relaxing if i could just stop all my thoughts. oh, it would feel like drinking a fresh squeeze lemonade under a hot sunny afternoon.
these thoughts are preventing me from being the care-free jane always seems to be. being jolly energetic and care-free are not something that come natural to me anymore. it is more of something i have to force myself to become, to remind myself to who i am suppose to be and to bring some sunshine into my day, even for a little bit.
but that is something i had been dealing with for quite sometime, and i am positive that i can still be able to bare with it a little while longer. sometimes it may get to overwhelming and it gets me choked with negativity but then i guess getting worked up is not the answer as i still have to deal with it, despite all the shit. dependency is somewhat gone from my life i would say...
anyway, back to the down low, last week has been quite an awesome week. it might also be one the highlight my life. (haha,doink). but ya. i had the golden opportunity to attend the ATP (Association of Tennis Professionals) tournament here in Houston. it was nothing short of excitement for me. well, it is not as if i have other experience to compare with but then there were not many top ranked players that were there. i wished there were more but i was still as excited as can be.
tickets were not cheap. the tournament started on Saturday and ended the next Sunday. i attended seven out of the nine days but i only bought three tickets. haha, well, that means for the rest of the four days, i 'snuck' in. not to say that it was illegal but it was not full house, and no one asked for any ticket, so i assume they allowed it. afterall, i only tried my luck and i guess i was pretty lucky. besides, i may be doing the tournament atmosphere some favour, if it were not for me, there would be one less clapping and cheering. one less out of less than two hundred people crowd does make a difference.
the first weekends started with the qualifiers playing for the main draw. players from the qulifiers that some may know are like, Donald Young, the one that likes to wear his cap to one side (bla) and Amer Delic (!), the one that did really well and made headlines during the Australian Open, when he made the rounds of 16 and brought Novak Djokovic to a four setter. it was also that match between Delic and Djokovic that casued a steer in the Melbourne park, where Bostonians and Serbians supporters were bashing each other up. because Delic is a Bostonian born American.
the main draw events started on Monday. on the main draw, James Blake and Mardy Fish were the first and second seed respectively. besides that, there were also Tommy Haas, Llyeton Hewitt, Guillermo Canas, Taylor Dent, Jurgen Melzer, Marcel Granollers, Evegeny Korolev, Bjorn Phau, Agustin Calleri, Kevin Anderson, Wayne Odesnik and many others. most of whom i have not even heard of and many of those only made it to the second round of the Aussy Open. though a big fan, i call myself, i am still very shallow when it comes to lower ranked players. on the doubles team, the current world no.1, Bryan Brothers made the torunament all more prestigious (?).
i can go on forever on the tournament but i guess i will write it in another post with some photos to share as well.
i really need a break from all these hectic schedule. but i know, in less than two months, i will be getting my ultimate well-deserved break of my dreams. till then, slogging all i have.